Work is so bored at AMK, like cannot on the radio cause later the apek cannot concentrate to do his work. And the room is so quiet. Then I don't have much work to do until I don't know what to do. Some things that I'm used to doing, the apek wants to do..so let him do lor. Was reading this book "Crazy in Love", so damn funny. hahaha. She tried so hard to get the guy that she had a crush on, somewhat like me. But its never worth it. I learned my lesson.
Anyway...i am losing weight drastically and its scary. I dont like being skinny. I work so hard to gain some weight, now its like 42. And I can see that my legs are looking more like chopsticks. And its ugly. My hands are sooo much smaller than before. Man..i'm paranoid.
Its not that I dont want to. But I'm afraid. Afraid of whats gonna happen...scared of what i would feel...scared of getting hurt again. Its hard. I'm not playing any game. Its not even a game. Its a wise decision that I had made after giving thoughts to it. You make me begged and begged like a shameless bitch. And now I just dont have the same feelings like when I begged for it. It had gone down the drain like how you throw me aside. Prove it. Now I'm saying it back to you. I don't care if it take forever. If you are really sincere, you wont have any doubt about accepting it. And I'm not asking for your money nor yourself. Only time can heal the pain.
No matter how many times I said I HATE YOU, you should know that it is never true.
I didn't know that I would fall in love with you the first time I met you.
Sometimes, when you have everything, you can't really tell what matters. But to me what matter matters.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance; take it. If it changes your life; let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
"Setiap kali aku bersamamu, aku nantikan saat kau katakan I LOVE U padaku, dan aku adalah milikmu"
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