Havnt had a second to breathe.
Some numbers just seems familiar.
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This is really hard. If only you could tell. I wouldnt have to ask. But if I had to, I have too. Maybe you could just say those words. To keep me from wandering whom it concerns. My hearts just pounds everytime I see those sentences. I can't help but reads. I'll make it easier for you. I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU. (: Labels: izzy is in love with you. |
You called. Yay! I'll tell you I send my misses to the wind. Sometimes when I says it didnt bother, it did. When I said it doesnt matters, it does. Even when I dont want to know, the more I want to. The more I see the more I'm into it. I just wants it to disappear. Disappears into the infinity and beyond. Lock it in a chest and throw it out to the space. Bury the key in the bottom of the ocean. If being yourself is already hard enough, why are trying so hard to be me. Get your own identity.You nimron! Labels: izzy is in love with you. |
Dear Diary I think I'm mad. Well maybe not. I've been looking at the photos in my FB account and I just don't know how many times I have been looking at it. And secondly I just seems to not can sleep. And today Wizards of Waverly place was super lame, but though I still loves you David Henry, you're super hot and cute! Wohoo!! Guess what diary, finally I did it myself! I went to watch a movie alone. Weee! And I love the feeling. Its like watching TV at home only bigger. But home's better. Shall do it again whenever I want to. And Starhub has been giving me an unexpected service after I gave them my feedback/complain. LOLS! That was fun-ny. And sometimes I wished that I could talk to someone when I couldnt sleep and get everything out of my head. Well, that someone has not arrived yet. Flight delay I guessed. Doinks. Well I think I'm starting to blabber. I think I miss someone, but...its hard. I don't how to say it. And I don't know who to tell. Aiyo. I just wants to see you again but..man..this is hard. And lastly CANON is hot and sassy! I'm loving it. xoxo Izzy Labels: thats why you love me |
I came to realise that I was with dad throughout his last days. Even its not really 'with' dad. I didnt write to brag or to tell people. Its just something that I could read back and remembers what happen on the very day. Its kinda of a month plus already but the event just flashs back in my mind. It was wednesday, the day before my dad died. I was late for my training and my dad called me asking me to wait for him...he doesnt feel like going to work. And I kept calling him asking where he was already. That was the last time I really talked to him. He went home, clean the house, do the laundry and everything. And everything was like normal. And at night I just feels that something is wrong somewhere and I just don't feels right. I kept walking here and there cause I know something is not right and I just can't figure out what it is. And the next morning, as per normal, he's going to work, I salam him but dont really see his face, my eyes was in sleep mode. I was at training when I received the call from the hospital. I thought A&E was an insurance company so I was not interested in talking, but when the person on the other line said "Do you know that your father was in the hospital?" I was shocked. It wasnt serious in the first place. But the second call was really urgent and serious. I had to send my sister down first cause I couldnt make it. At this moment I really thought nothing is gonna happen, and by the third call, I was panicking. The nurse was shouting where are you already? I kept calling my sister and my sister called me too to update me on the status. I just couldnt bare to stay for the training so I just went off straight to the hospital. I had no choice but to take a cab. I was already at the junction to CGH and my sister called asking me to hurry, my dad had a few more minutes..A FEW MORE MINUTES! I just couldnt stop crying, and panting at the same time..my heart was damn bloody fast, and I'm just so very scared. Off the cab, still on the line with my sister, crying, running, panicking and scared. I just couldnt find the place name Lobby B, no nurse wants to help. I was running round and round. I just wants to shout. I dashed up the lift and saw my sister and aunt. We both were crying and praying and scared. We just dont know what to do. Called every uncle but none had reached. And my dad was gone. I called my uncles, everyone was shocked. We all hadnt had the chance to meet him and talk to him. By the time I'd seen my dad'd body, I was in a shock state, couldnt find the words to say, couldnt think. I was dizzy already and my whole body was shaking. The nurse prepared a hot drink for me, some biscuits and sandwiches. Everyone finally came, I hugged my aunt and never let got. I somehow loving the moment that everyone was there to help me with everything. Both me and my sister was so lost and don;'t know what to do next. We don't even know anything, the procedures or whatever the doctor is gonna explain. And I forgot to say, we couldnt get through my mum since the call from the hospital. This is the frustrating part, and it makes us both even more sad. No one could ever imagine hows the situation and atmosphere is like for the both of us. Its the worst day of my life. I dont care about anything else. And I still feel guilty for the words I said that home is hell. Labels: my name is Izyan Nasser |
I've been having retail therapy since march started! Could someone tell me to cut down! Macaroons is soft and chewy in the inside that i had to have more. Cakes is soo indulging and teeth-clenching . Ice cream and waffles is on the top of my diet list. Chocolates never fails to make me smile. Teas refreshes my mind and body. And I'll get my hands on durians soon! Well, one thing everyone has to learn to have the perfect diet and body..always eat like a champion: One, stop thinking if u didnt finish the food its a waste. Yes its a waste but never eat more than what your body can consume. Two, if you like to count the calories you are gonna store in your body. STOP! Its not doing any good. Three, dont eat and walk and do whatever else. Sit down and eat your meal properly. Four, never gulge down your food. Eat slowly. It digests easier. Five, dont eat according to your emotions, get that body pump up and move to the groove. And lastly, laughs and you'll have the perfect diet and the perfect body. (: Labels: little mary says what |
Dear Dad Its been a month since you're gone. I still misses you. I just wants you to know that I will promise you that I would take good care of Ibu, Izzah and Nani. Its been hard on me lately, but everyone is trying their best to help me..Mak Busu, Cik Nasric.. I never realised how much people around me loves me so much. I had done my very best and I will continue to strive for the best for our family. You dont have to worry. This I promise you. This taught me a very important lesson. Our families got closer..everyone's there for us.. And lastly this makes me a stronger person and be more responsible. 4 Feb 2010 This was the day you left us. This was the day I cried like never before. This was the day that I knew that everyone loves me. This was the day I felt the worst. This was the day that I was so scared. This was the day I'm lost. This was the day I realised that.. I LOVE YOU. Tiada itu kemudahan melainkan apa yang kau jadikan yang sukar itu mudah. Mudahkanlah segalanya yang akan kau berikan kepadaku. Amin. Labels: dear dad |