Labels: broken
Monday, September 28, 2009
broken
Can't wait for breakfast meeting. I don't even know your name. |
Can't wait for breakfast meeting. I don't even know your name. Labels: broken |
My only birthday wish is to celebrate it with you. But I know it will never come true. Labels: only |
Everything is a lie. Im going crazy. A moment I would be sad thinking of you. And tears will just roll down. But another moment I will be just mad and annoyed at you. My head is taking over my emotions. Why is it so hard. The true fact I miss you. And I would have to think of something bad to get rid of the feeling. And it hurts pretty bad. I MISS YOU! Labels: S.J. |
U EVIL BLOODY BASTARD By right you want it long time ago so you can have all the freedom and right to flirt around. And you are just waiting for the damn bloody right time to do that. How stupid can I get all this while. Its pretty obvious and I still couldnt bloody see it. I'm fooled. And whats the intentions of FRIENDS? So you can flirt around with me next time. Thats not my game. Its your bloody game. Not all friendship works. At first you see it then before you know it its gone. If you are done with me. I bloody hell am done with you. I'm sorry is that right? Well..ya..if you think its no..but do you think I care? I bloody hell don't care. And I've learned. All I care is my own well beings. I already said it. I bloody damn said whatever to you. WHATEVER! I repeat WHATEVER! And yes..I damn love your bloody good sentence that you repeated everytime I asked. And KARMA will repeat it for you. Cause that is what you believe isnt it? Yeah. And on that bloody day, I will just stand and watch you fall. And all you can hear is my evil bloody laughter. Labels: bloody day |
TO LOVE IS TO FORGIVE. ANGER BEGINS WITH FOLLY, AND ENDS WITH REGRET. What you see is not what it really is. Leave me alone and I will tear. Anger strikes again. The urge to smash the glass window is so strong. But I couldnt. The emotional state is too powerful. Imaginary ailments. Waiting for miracles to happen. But it wont. The desire lingers. It just wont leave. Every thoughts kills. It leaves a scar. I tattoo your name across my heart. So no one can erase it. Not even you. Not even me. Every night. I dreamt you. You feel so close. But I know. You wont be there when I wake up. Its a beautiful nightmare. A perfect lullaby. I wished it stays forever. My world happens to revolve around you. And every thing I do or did Reminds me of you. And the only way to clear it out of my head. And to tear you off my heart. I told myself. Bloody Bastard. Its no joke. And it will fade away. Labels: dark evil |
On my way home when I saw this little baby staring at me with her big round eyes. I was kinda in a "whatever to you" mood and was eating cheeseburger. And she keep staring. And so I came to her said hi and talked to her mum. So her name was Najwa, about 1 year plus old. And we took the same bus. And she just cant keep her eyes off me. haha. So I sat beside her and her mum and I somewhat played along with her. And when they reached their stop, Najwa made a friend kiss. Hahaha. And I did it back to her. And she made my day. And Aunty Pretty!!! I miss Soffiyah!!!! And they got back together, she got married to him, the other got pregnant with some other guy and his girlfriend don't wants him back. And what happen to her? And she falls in love with him. And him admires him and dumped her. I think I may be falling for you. Labels: i rebelled |
UUUAAAARRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! There, finally I shouted my lungs out. You annoying sod. Who cares about whatever you want to do. Who cares how filthy rich you are. Who cares how smart you are. Who cares if you got the looks.Who cares if you are popular. Who cares for your time, Who cares for what things you care for. Who cares and who cares. Sod. Just keep your mouth shut. You just have no guts and your ego is higher than the skyscaper. Dont even bother to care. Cause now, I AM SAYING WHATEVER TO YOU! I had enough. How greatful am I to get out of the enclosed dark suffocating room. And finally I get to wake up and smell the coffee. You are just a stranger passing by. Labels: one word |
Can I just shout out loud like no one's business? Its so sudden. Really is very sudden. Didnt expect it to come this fast. Can't love and be hurt again. Labels: flea |
"It will never happen" is just the right words that motivate me to let go and move on. And I'm already over it. And the drastic weight loss had motivated me to keep fit and healthy *even though I ate chocolates everyday* but it works ok. Now I have gained back some weight that I lost. And I'm so proud of myself. *applause* haha. blearghs. Lunch break was so bored. But ever since I figured out where the library was..so its my hang out place every lunch. And everytime I go to the library, I would sure borrow a book. And now I was figuring out how I could finish reading all of them. I'm sooo kiasu. I kept thinking what I did wrong, but I grew strong, I learn how to carry on. Hush Hush Labels: fetish |
These chocolates are soo gonna be my weight gainer for now. Even thought it wont help much. But hey who don't like cholocates right? blearghs. Pssst...if you wanna buy chocolates right...go to Changi Airport(I always go to T3)...The Cocoa Trees..its very worth it...cause there is no GST. And its so much cheaper. And if you buy jelly beans before 2pm..you get 100gm free. No kidding. Don't ask. I'll be sincere. Labels: chocolates is loved |
These two star signs will do very well together if Sagittarius can manage to be around long enough to fulfil Libra's inherent need for togetherness. Libra too must allow her partner some freedom to pursue his own interests. Maybe this is the reason for everything. Well, its time to let go and move on. Labels: Astrology |
Break my fast in the bus eating LJS, I eat like nobody business, nasib tak kene chase away by the bus driver. haha Work is so bored at AMK, like cannot on the radio cause later the apek cannot concentrate to do his work. And the room is so quiet. Then I don't have much work to do until I don't know what to do. Some things that I'm used to doing, the apek wants to do..so let him do lor. Was reading this book "Crazy in Love", so damn funny. hahaha. She tried so hard to get the guy that she had a crush on, somewhat like me. But its never worth it. I learned my lesson. Anyway...i am losing weight drastically and its scary. I dont like being skinny. I work so hard to gain some weight, now its like 42. And I can see that my legs are looking more like chopsticks. And its ugly. My hands are sooo much smaller than before. Man..i'm paranoid. Its not that I dont want to. But I'm afraid. Afraid of whats gonna happen...scared of what i would feel...scared of getting hurt again. Its hard. I'm not playing any game. Its not even a game. Its a wise decision that I had made after giving thoughts to it. You make me begged and begged like a shameless bitch. And now I just dont have the same feelings like when I begged for it. It had gone down the drain like how you throw me aside. Prove it. Now I'm saying it back to you. I don't care if it take forever. If you are really sincere, you wont have any doubt about accepting it. And I'm not asking for your money nor yourself. Only time can heal the pain. No matter how many times I said I HATE YOU, you should know that it is never true. I didn't know that I would fall in love with you the first time I met you. Sometimes, when you have everything, you can't really tell what matters. But to me what matter matters. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance; take it. If it changes your life; let it. Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. "Setiap kali aku bersamamu, aku nantikan saat kau katakan I LOVE U padaku, dan aku adalah milikmu" Labels: remember me remember my name |